In Loving Memory of Tammy Lynn Lucas

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In Loving Memory of
Tammy Lynn Lucas
April 30, 1966 - July 28, 2001

MISSING MY DAUGHTER TAMMY LYNN
We Will Be Together Once Again
~In Heaven~
~Forever Mother And Daughter~

Since the day of Tammy going to the Lord, July 28/01, ten years ago...
my beautiful daughter Tammy Lynn was killed in a car accident on her way to work at the police department in Silsbee Texas at the age of 35.... She left behind 3 children: 2 daughters, Tiffany Lynn and Kati Ann; one son, Robi Dean ~ 3 brothers, Steven, Darren and Rickey;
and 3 sisters Ginger, Jennifer and Valerie.

This picture was taken July 24/01, just four days before Tammy was killed in that car accident.

Here is a picture of Tammy's girls, taken at Easter this year. Tammy would be so proud and happy holding her girls. Kalynn Tami will be 5 this year,
her sister Kylie Faye will be 4. Kati Ann, Tammy's other daughter, her daughter Jessie Lynn is 3 years old now,
and her other little girl, Korie Lee Ann, will be 2 years old later this month. Kati Ann is expecting again, her newest baby is due in December.

I wanted you to see one of my favorite pictures of Tammy just 4 days before she was killed.

This is another picture taken the same day July 24/01. Tammy changed clothes then into the blue and changed her hair style.
She never got to see these pictures at all. She was killed before they were done.
My dear friend Ann, Mom to Angel Laura, worked her "magic" on the 2 above photos for Tammy's web page.

I found this picture that I had never seen, Tammy at my Mother's.

When One Is Gone

Time has not softened the heart of losing my daughter.
Words are so near and every day in my heart and mind when one is gone.
Can you hear me Cry from Inside Way Down Deep?
Hear the wind on a stormy night.
That is my cries from my very Soul,
a Soul of a mother that has lost one of her own.

Do you see the Rain in a Stormy day or night?
That is the tears of a Broken Heart of a Mother that has lost one of her own.
Do you see the sun on a bright sunny day when you are blinded by the rays?
That is the Eyes of a mother that no longer can see her child
that she has lost one of her own.

Do you see the Ground that you walk on every day?
A mother that has lost her child can see where her child now lays, one of her own
Now can you hear the birds singing so beautiful all around you.
That is the beautiful Memories you have still of your child when one is gone.
Do you see the butterfly? It is sent from your child when she is gone,
you will have pleasant thoughts of your child then of one of your own.

Now do you know our God and His Son Jesus?
That is the only way I will see hold and smile at my Tammy, the one taken away, one of my own
If it wasn't for God, My Family and the promise I wouldn't be here.

Remember it isn't over for a Mother That Has Lost one of her own.
The pain is deep inside that will only go away
when all are together again, with all my own.

When you see me know I hide my pain now
as all think it should be gone when one of my own is gone.
A Mother That Has Lost A Child Will Carry Her Pain Way Down Deep Inside,
When One Is Gone
Written by Jaynce Last, Copyright 2010

The Words and The Heart Of A Mother that has Lost Her Child
as the Years Gone On
When One Is Gone
One Of Her Own
Speaking from my Heart the Agony
of losing one of my own children
My Daughter

Since that day of Tammy going to the Lord ~ her daughter Tiffany Lynn got married. At this wedding I walked down the aisle with the song playing There Hole's In The Floor Of Heaven and She's Watching down on You. Then I lit a candle at Tammy's picture holding Tiffany when she was a baby. Tiffany gave birth to Tammy's first Granddaughter little Kalynn Tami born on the Katrina day of that year, Kalynn Tami turns 5 this year. Tiffany had another baby girl, another granddaughter for Tammy,
her name is Kylie Faye, and she will be 4 this year.

Kalynn Tami with her Easter basket.

Kylie Faye - always smiling!

Kalynn Tami and Kylie Faye playing together.

Tammy's daughter Kati Ann also had a another baby girl, born November 2006. Her name is Jessie Lynn.

Jessie Lynn adorable in her little hat.

Kati Ann's youngest daughter, Korie Lee Ann. This will be the first time Korie gets in here.

Jessie Lynn and Korie together, aren't they the cutest?

Here is a picture of Kati Ann and her husband Dusty with their two girls Jessie Lynn and Korie Lee Ann. Kati is expecting another baby, hoping for a boy this time.

Here is a new picture of all Tammy's kids together in black shirts sitting together on steps. We just did one of all my family then this picture with them doing it on their own.

This picture is of Tammy's kids again in black shirts, and granddaughters all in pink shirts.

The girls at a baby pagent last year with the youngest babies. Kylie Faye
with Tiffany and Jessie Lynn with Kati.

Both the girls at Tammy's headstone April 30/07, Tammy's birthday, with Tammy's granddaughters.
The baby at the headstone touching it is Kati's daughter, Jessie Lynn.

This picture was also taken on Tammy's birthday this year at the cemetery.
This is 5 generations. My Mother, Nanny on the wall, name is Ruth Cleo.
Me, Ginger Ruth, Tiffany Lynn, Kati Ann, Kalynn Tami, Kylie Faye, Jessie Lynn and Jordan Lane.

Here is Tammy's oldest granddaughter at her grandma Tammy's head stone kissing Tammy's picture. Tiffany Tammy's daughter tries so hard to make sure her girls know their grandma.

"Sissy's Song" by Alan Jackson

Why did she have to go
So young I just don't know why
Things happen half the time
Without reason without rhyme
Lovely, sweet young woman
Daughter, wife and mother
Makes no sense to me
I just have to believe

She flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with Jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me

Loved ones she left behind
Just trying to survive
And understand the why
Feeling so lost inside
Anger shot straight at God
Then asking for His love
Empty with disbelief
Just hoping that maybe

She flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with Jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me

It's hard to say goodbye
Her picture in my mind
They'll always be of times I'll cherish
And I won't cry 'cause

She flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me
Don't worry 'bout me

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!!
A Tribute to Tammy Lynn Lucas on her Birthday "My Mom"
with love from her oldest daughter Tiffany Lynn

Here is a new picture of Tammy's oldest daughter Tiffany Lynn and her 2 daughter's, Kalynn Tami and Kylie Faye,
with Tiffany's husband, Michael, on Easter.

Tammy Lynn's daughter Tiffany Lynn and Tammy's 2 granddaughters, Kalynn Tami (age 3 here) and Kylie Faye (age 2 here) rode in the parade along with lots of other Queens. Tammy has 2 more granddaughters also - Jesse Lynn, almost 4 now, and Korie Lee Ann, who will soon be 2 years old. Tammy was a 1983 Rodeo Queen in Liberty, Texas. They honored all past Queens this year as it was the 100th year of the TVE fair and rodeo in Liberty, Texas. The 2 granddaughters also won second place in the baby parade. They wanted to be
just like their grandma Tammy when they grow up - a Rodeo Queen!

These are two beautiful and loving gifts to Angel Tammy from my dear friend, Carol, mom to Angel Michael.

Robi showing off a new tattoo. Wished he hadn't got it, but here it is.

Robi Dean is on his own living in College Station Texas at the moment.

Robi and Tiffany.

Kati Ann, Robie Dean and Tiffany Lynn. Kati fixed this picture, she added her Mother to it.
See Tammy on the top right hand side.

KATI WROTE THIS NEXT POEM WHEN SHE WAS SAD THINKING ABOUT HER MOM...

I remember you from long ago,
Your face reassuring as you kissed away my tears;
Your patient touch as you taught me to draw and how to sew
You'd slay the monsters in my closet, just to ease my fears...
You were the bravest person I ever thought I knew.
I wanted so much to grow up knowing you;
But I never knew your rope of strength was growing O' so tight...
I never knew your sadness was soon to strangle your fight.
You left me all alone;
You left me sad and scared.
You left me in our life for the dark and the unknown.
There was so much more with me that you could've shared;
You'll never understand how important it is to me
To have had you here and have you see -
Of all I am and all I'm not.
I'm all grown-up... would you be proud of me through all I've fought?
You never worried about my first date,
Or yelled because I came home an hour late.
I'll never see you turn to me and smile,
As I would walk down the aisle.

This next poem is one Kati wrote right after her Mom died...

My God, why did you take my mother?
Angels took the wrong one - not her - another.
Regret is a feeling that I feel everyday;
You took her from me, and I didn't say -

"I Love You, Mom," in my own way;
Only to hear her say it back to me.
God, why couldn't you just let us be?
She didn't deserve to die;
Didn't deserve to be in pain,
Only to leave me here asking you why -
Night after night when I cry in vain.

TO MOM, FROM KATI

I KNOW YOUR IN HEAVEN, MOM, WHERE YOU CAN NEVER HURT OR BE HURT AGAIN
AND I KNOW YOU WILL ALWAYS BE LOVED AND HAPPY IN YOUR KNEW HOME,
BUT IF YOU EVER FEEL LIKE COMING DOWN TO SAY, HI
I WILL BE HAPPY TO SEE YOUR BEAUTIFUL FACE,
AND I KNOW WHAT EVER YOU HAVE TO SAY WILL PUT A SMILE ON MINE.
I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT YOU WOULD BE SO PROUD OF ME
FOR THE THINGS I HAVE DONE FOR MYSELF.
I HAVE FOUND SOMEONE WHO LOVES ME AND HAS GIVEN ME SOMETHING
I HAVE WANTED SINCE YOU HAVE GONE,
SOMETHING TO FILL THAT HOLE THAT LONGED FOR THAT ETERNAL LOVE
THAT ONLY A MOTHER COULD GIVE
BUT THIS TIME I AM THE MOTHER WITH A BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER TO GIVE IT TO.
SHE IS SILLY AND BEAUTIFUL,
AND WHEN SHE MAKES ME SMILE I THINK OF YOU
AND HOW I WISH YOU COULD SEE HER,
I JUST WANT TO BE THE MOTHER TO HER THAT YOU WERE TO ME.
I HOPE SHE LOOKS UP TO ME AND SEES ME AS A FRIEND LIKE I DID WITH YOU.
I HOPE SHE COMES TO ME WITH HER SECRETS AND QUESTIONS
AND I WILL UNDER STAND AND TELL HER THE TRUTH.
I WANT TO STAND BEHIND HER DREAMS AND SUPPORT HER LIKE YOU DID FOR ME.
AND MOM IF I EVER LOOK LIKE I NEED YOUR HELP OR I'M DOING WRONG
PLEASE COME AND HOLD ME TIGHT
TO LET ME KNOW IT WILL BE OK, THAT YOU'RE THERE FOR ME.
I LIVE TO WALK IN YOUR FOOT STEPS
AS A MOTHER WHO LOVED AND SUPPORTED HER KIDS,
WHO WAS THERE FOR THEM NO MATTER WHAT.
I LOVE YOU MOM AND I WILL MAKE SURE JESSIE KNOWS YOU THROUGH ME
AND WILL LOVE YOU AS I DID.
I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU MOM,
HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU SOON.

Thank You Susie for this beautiful gift for Tammy's family.

Ginger, Tammy's sister, has a new son Jordan Lane that will be 3 in November, and Tammy's brother, Rickey, and his wife Shyann had a daughter, Sheridan Ruth, that will be 3 in October and a new baby boy
born this May, little Audie Eugene.

Ginger, Tammy's sister, with baby Jordan that will be 3 this November. These two girls were so close
and they saw each other every day. Ginger is the one that goes out to Tammy's grave lots
and sits with her to talk.

A Dream That Tammy's Sister Ginger Had About Tammy

About two weeks ago I had a dream and I was struggling about things that wouldn't go away. Well I asked God to hep me , Because thoses dreams troubled me. Well that night I had another one. I was in a room with the family, and when I turned around Tammy stood there watching. I looked at her and said, "Tammy." She said, "hey Gin." I told her, what are you doing, I come to tell you, that I'm fine, and I know that you want me back, but please don't ask me to. I stood with tears in my eyes and said, ok. She said, it's so beautiful over here and you just can't imagine, you just can't imgaine how beautiful it is. Then she smiled and I woke up, I felt so so much joy and all I could do was smile and say Thank You Jesus I know God took care of her
and I thank him for that.

Thank You Lord
Love Ginger, November 2001

Tammy's sister, Valerie, had a new baby girl, Madison Bailee, born May 15, she turned 1 this year.

Tammy's 'Paw Paw on the wall' left this world 3 year's ago in March; her grandmother, as all the grand kids call her, 'Nanny on the wall' as they said 'Paw Paw on the wall,' is doing ok, but still grieves for Tammy and paw paw her husband of 59 years, my parents. Tammy's oldest daughter Tiffany, when a baby, is where the Nanny and Paw Paw on the wall came from, because their picture was on the wall. I became a Nanny with Tiffany, that's how we told us apart with it sticking forever with them. Tammy's other grandmother passed away last year in Virginia, May 18, Rouie Faye Lucas, Tammy's father Pifer's mom.

As for me ~ my heart will never heal from the loss of Tammy. Years do not take the pain from your heart
it only puts time between you and them. My heart has not even come close
to making Tammy gone softer with this pain.

I Am The Mother that carried her in my body. I am the mother that gave birth to her. I am the mother
that raised her. My child is gone from me. It's a thing that haunts you forever as a Mother.

I am A Mother That Has Lost A Child

Janyce, Tammy's Mother

Robi and me (Tammy's mom) taken at his graduating party at my oldest son's home.
My oldest son Steven's daughter Allie graduated the same time as Robi at the same school.

The two girls with their Mom - Tiffany on the left, and Kati next to Tammy.
Most people have never seen these with Tammy and her girls.

I Can Only Imagine

I can only imagine
What it will be like
When I walk
By your side

I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When your face
Is before me
I can only imagine

Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for you Jesus or in awe of you be still
Will I stand in your presence or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine

I can only imagine
When that day comes
And I find myself
Standing in the Son

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever, Forever worship You
I can only imagine

Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for you Jesus or in awe of you be still
Will I stand in your presence or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine

I can only imagine
I can only imagine

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever, forever worship you

Thank You Susie For This picture Of Tammy With Wings.

Tammy at 3 months old.

Tammy at one year old.

FOREVER

I may be invisible to your sight
But I'm forever here
You may not hear me speak
But I'm forever whispering in your ear
You may not feel my touch
But I'm forever by your side
You may not feel my presence
But I'm forever going to remind you
my soul has NOT died
You may not see my face
But I'm forever smiling at you
You may not know I'm there
But I'm forever watching what you do
I may not breathe the same air
But I'm forever holding you
And though I can not be seen
I'm forever, like my love for you.
~ Author unknown

Tammy enjoyed her days of horsemanship~ It was a joy to watch her sitting atop a majestic animal~!
This was a western pleasure class in Baytown, Texas.

Tammy quickly grew to a beautiful young lady and captured hearts everywhere w/ her smile and her ability to handle horses.
She was 1983 rodeo queen in Liberty, Tx and in 1982 she was second runner up. She rode in Dayton and won Miss Congeniality.

Our Little Girl all grown up and a true beauty in every way~! Not only in Looks but also in...
Heart Mind and soul~!

Inspired By You

From the day that you gave me life, you helped me live, you helped me grow.
We went through all the good, we made it through all the tears and sorrow.
You inspired me, you taught me, I learned from you, you learned from me.
All the good times, all the fights, but our love together still shines bright.
I think about you every night, everyday, all the time, especially by candlelight.
The remorsing thoughts, the shadows that fill my mind,
the times we've lost,the memories that are hard to find.
The times we've said good-bye and thought we would be together again,
I never thought I would lose you.
Our time has come to an end.
I acted as if I didn't need you, I always pushed you away,
but still you kept on trying, your love was always there to stay.
I regret not being around you. I regret the times I've missed.
All your jokes and laughter, all your love and bliss.
Your eyes shine like diamonds in the snow,
your smile is like a light, that I will never know.
I've tried to go on with out you, the times keep passing by,
the pain just won't go away, it's so hard to say good-bye.
With out you, my life has changed, my heart feels so cold,
all the love and memories, I will never let go.
I will always be your first child, that will never change.
Nothing will ever compare to the love that we exchanged.
I made a wish, that I will see you once again,
that our time in heaven will never end.
In Loving Memory of My Mom, Tammy Lynn Lucas
April 30, 1966-July 28, 2001
Copyright Tiffany Lynn Lucas~2001

Here is a picture of Tammy's daughter Tiffany. She also wrote the following letter to her mom...

DEAR MOM-

IT HAS BEEN 8 YEARS AND STILL FEELS LIKE YESTERDAY...NO ONE CAN IMAGINE HOW MUCH PAIN I HAVE ENDURED WITH YOUR LOSS ON JULY 28, 2001. SINCE YOUR PASSING I HAVE GRADUATED FROM HIGH SCHOOL, BEEN ON A ROLLERCOASTER IN LIFE, FOUND THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, MIKEY, WHOM I HAVE BEEN MARRIED TO FOR 3 HAPPY YEARS, AND HAD TWO BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTERS, BACK TO BACK MIGHT I ADD, KALYNN TAMI AND KYLIE FAYE. I ALWAYS LOOK AT MY GIRLS AND REMEMBER YOU TELLING US YOU COULDN'T WAIT TILL WE HAD YOUR GRANDCHILDREN CAUSE OF HOW MUCH YOU LOVED KIDS, WELL WE HAVE 3 BEAUTFUL GRANDAUGHTERS FOR YOU AND KNOW YOUR LOOKING DOWN ON THEM EVERYDAY!! TO THIS DAY THE TEARS ROLL FROM MY EYES OF KNOWING THAT YOUR NOT HERE TO PLAY WITH THEM!! ALL I HAVE EVER WANTED SINCE YOU PASSED WAS FOR MY HUSBAND TO BE ABLE TO MEET THE WONDERFUL, HAPPY PERSON YOU WERE AND FOR MY CHILDREN TO BE ABLE TO SEE WHAT A WONDERFUL GRANDMOTHER YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN! NOTHING IN THIS WORLD WILL EVER REPLACE YOU OR THE SPOT IN MY HEART THAT YOU FULFILLED IN MY LIFE AND IM HAPPY TO SAY THAT YOU ARE THE BEST MOM AND INSPIRATION THAT I COULD HAVE EVER ASKED FOR. I WANT TO END THIS LETTER WITH LETTING YOU KNOW THAT I AM LIVING A HAPPY, WONDERFUL LIFE WITH MY HUSBAND AND TWO GIRLS, LIVING FOR GOD, AND KNOWING EACH DAY THAT I HAVE A PROMISED LIFE WITH YOU SOON IN HEAVEN. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU DEARLY AND CAN'T WAIT TILL THAT DAY WHEN HEAVEN'S DOORS OPEN AND ME AND MY GIRLS RUN TO YOUR OPEN ARMS! I HOPE YOUR PROUD OF ME!! -TIFFANY LYNN - 7/28/07

Tammy with her children on her wedding day, May 16, 1997~ A little girl all grown up and starting life on her own~
what a blessing she was to her husband and family~!

My little girl all grown up~! Here she is with Lindsey, the littest one of her own.
Tammy was a Mother's Pride & Joy in more ways than one~!

All 3 of Tammy's children together just before Tammy was killed, with Tammy's dog Sasha at Tammy's house.

Our Christmas Angels

Tammy with her big smile at work.

Ann sent me this a long time ago. She has lost her daughter Laura too. When she saw this image, it reminded her of Tammy.

A small gift for Tammy Lynn Lucas-Allen's family on her Angelversary. May God bless and comfort you.
GEOFFREY P. EDWARDS

Dear Janyce
My ANGEL Lee wrote many poems, I would love to share this one with you and your ANGEL.

CORE
Softness of the skin
Sweetness in the smell
Nectar of the fruit
Tender in the heart
Dancing in the eyes
Uplifting in the smile
Tickle of the touch
Joining in the love

Truth in the speech
Love in the laughter
Primal in the scream
Soft in the whisper
Quick in the mind
Fair in the sentence
Brave in the confrontation
Joining in the love

Graceful in the sleep
Careful in the search
Deep in the sorrow
Strength in the sickness
Giving of thy self
Rich in the health
Kind in the giving
Joining in the love

Written By Lee Henry Aguilera~~~Sue-Anne's ANGEL